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They sat in the rental car outside the fairgrounds with the engine running and the heat on full, and for a long time neither of them said anything.
Walt Brennan's truck pulled out of the lot and disappeared down the county road. The sketch lay face-up on the dashboard between them. Grandma Ruth stared up at the windshield with her pencil-drawn pearls.
"You knew," Nora said.
Caleb's hands were on the steering wheel at ten and two, like a student driver.
"Not all of it."
"Then tell me the part you know."
He put the car in drive.
He took her to a Bob Evans off the highway, because it was the first restaurant he saw, and only after they'd sat down did Nora remember that Grace had worked at one in 1999. Maybe this one. A waitress in her twenties brought coffee and called them "hon." Nora couldn't stop looking at her.
Caleb wrapped both hands around his mug.
"I was four," he said. "You have to remember that. Everything I'm about to tell you, a four-year-old saw. And for twenty-seven years, every adult I trusted told me I saw it wrong."
"Okay."
"We had a baby sister," Caleb said. "Before you. She had dark hair. A lot of it. She cried in this tiny voice, like a kitten. She had little white braces on her legs, with Velcro straps, and a machine next to her crib that beeped at night. I used to sit by the crib and count the beeps until I fell asleep."
Nora said nothing. Her throat had closed.
"Mom stopped picking her up," he went on. "I didn't understand it then. Marisol did everything. Feeding, bathing, the braces. Mom would stand in the doorway of the nursery and just look. Like the baby was a stranger who'd wandered into the house."
"Marisol," Nora repeated.
"Our nanny. You don't remember her. She left when you were two." He took a breath. "One night I woke up because Mom was screaming. Not words. Just screaming. I went into the hall and the bathroom door was open, and Marisol ran past me with the baby wrapped in a towel. Soaking wet. Marisol was crying and saying something in Spanish, over and over. And Mom—"
He stopped.
"Mom what?"
"Mom was sitting on the bathroom floor," Caleb said. "Folding a washcloth. Into a little square. Very carefully. Like nothing was happening."
Nora thought of Christmas Eve. Her mother's hands folding a napkin into a perfect square at Sunday dinner while Nora asked her where she came from.
"The next morning, Mom was gone. Dad said she went somewhere sunny to rest. Grandma Ruth moved in. And a few months later, the baby with the braces was gone too." His voice flattened. "Grandma said she'd gone to a special hospital where doctors could fix her legs."
"And then?"
"And then one day, at the end of the summer, Grandma came home from a trip. And she had you."
Caleb finally looked up at her.
"You were bigger. You were blonde. You laughed all the time. You didn't have braces or a machine. And Dad knelt down in front of me in the front hall and said, 'Buddy, this is Charlotte. The doctors fixed her. Isn't that a miracle?'"
The waitress came back to refill their coffee. Neither of them moved until she left.
"And I was four, Nor," Caleb said quietly. "I believed in Santa Claus. So I believed in miracles."